As a child of suicide I’ve spent a life counseling people off the edge of that cliff.
I’ve written about it, talked about it, and received countless letters from people who say I’ve made the difference and saved their lives. I’ve had a compassionate heart for depression and suffering.
Yet today, it changed.
Today I’m still compassionate but I see a different side of things.
Early this morning I decided to write about the story of the millionaire executive who decided life wasn’t worth living. He drove his car intentionally into traffic and killed a beautiful, pregnant young girl and her fiancé, a loving father of three. The executive who wanted to kill himself lived.
I saw a photo of Jason Timmons, with his little girl. She reminded me of me, a child left behind. But Jason was killed when Robert Dellinger plowed into him in his SUV as he tried to kill himself. Suicide is so selfish. Everyone who ever said that to me I argued with. But, maybe they’re right. As humans, we all have ups and downs. I work with hundreds every year in my life skills program with real loss and tragedy. Mercedes Ramirez, survived an airplane crash. I was a crisis management worker there. Hundreds died including her parents. Others added losses unimaginable. Mercedes is helping others, talking about healing and recovery.
Then this afternoon, I read this. About the
Little girl who died when a woman bent on suicide drove her car into a restaurant. Tragic.
Humans are either resilient or not. It’s a choice. Today I choose to look forward, help others, and survive the toughest moments in life.